Thursday, May 18, 2006

this is an honest post. i want to cry at leaving; i want to break down over the ephemerality of things, over the insignificance of six months in a school and a file full of paper and writing. i want to feel enough; feel something beyond this selfconscious disorientation and this jaded sense of loss. perhaps wanting something to jolt me out of this limbo into the intensity of feeling again, or perhaps i am too tired for all this at the moment. maybe i need sleep, and then i can write. my words are too feeble to do justice to the time i had at cedar. not at the moment, if ever.

ignore me im just in an incoherently depressed spell haha.


mellie contemplated 9:15 PM
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