Sunday, February 05, 2006

having a job- teaching, i mean, has brought me out of my ivory tower and shown me how completely sheltered my life as it was has been. i love studying, i love soaking up information, i love thinking, but working life does not involve anything remotely academic whatsoever. it makes me feel somewhat lost, becoming a somewhat silas marner situation where i turn increasingly introspective, leading to navel-gazing depression.

teaching isnt all that bad, i mean- i do love my classes, but the routine, and the understimulation of brain cells is very dulling. there's nothing new! and no time outside of teaching and marking and being exhausted to be able to think much, let alone read up on something new.

last night i rediscovered my sense of perspective, and an resolved to pull myself out of this rut. and omg i am so goign to sto here because my writing has totoally degenerated!!!!!!!!! ugh ugh


mellie contemplated 7:03 PM
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